goodbye 2011

this is 31th december 2011
this is the last day of 2011
time flies so fast
i still remember how we start this year
what a great things
and now, around 24 hours again we gonna end this year
a little bit sad to leave this wonderful year
in this year i learn so many things about life, i learn how to love someone endlessly, i learn what broken heart is, and i learn how hard is move on and forget the one that i love.
also i learn about how precious is friendship, i learn how to deny someone in my life
and i already know how love can destroy friendship. it really works, not just in the movies or novels
i already feel how awkward that time when the first time i start talking again with him
when the first time i sit again beside him, when the time that only the two of us in the car, when the time we chit and chat. huufft, really amazing !
and this year i spend so much time with my friends, watching movie together, hang out and many more.
i love, i broken, i smile, i frown, i laugh, i cry, i doing crazy, i angry, many more !
i just hope next year is better than this year, really.
i want all things new on 2012 :)
wanna leave my bad attitude in 2011
i want to have a boyfriend again ! hahaha
i will learn to loving someone endlessly but not him anymore :D
thanks 2011 for all the memories, all the fun moments, all the sweet things :)

nice trip to PUNCAK !

holiday holiday still exist ! hahaha

i went to puncak yesterday with Yohanes, Tori, Andrian, Chandra, JK, Julius.

it was nice trip

first, we went to Gunung Mas

the weater is so cool :) i like it so much

and next, we went to green apple, Yohanes' villa. we take a rest for a while

than we went to Strawberry garden, i picked the strawberries, they was so red and nice !

i drink strawberry juice with others, no delicious, the prices is only 5000 IDR ! hahhaha

and then we went to Kota Bunga and Cimory

i want to eat jagung bakar, but the condition was raining, so we cannot :(

Strawberry Garden

Gunung Mas

about a girl

She may not be your dream come true,

She may not be the shooting star you've always wished,

But she will always try to be that one girl you've always needed.

1) She won't mind sleeping a little bit later just to talk to you, the guy she's been in love with

2) You've always been in her prayer

3) She would call or text you, in her busiest time, just to know if you're doing alright

4) She would never get mad at you, because she never wants to hurt your feeling

5) She may get jealous some times, but never get it the wrong way, it means she loves you a little too much

6) She hates waiting, but when it comes to waiting for someone she loves, she won't care

7) She can be your best friend and your lover at a time

8) She always wants you to be happy, even if she is no longer the part of it

9) She always wants you to find a reason to smile, even if she is no longer the reason

10) She may fake her smiles, but never her tears and feelings

11) She remembers every little thing about you

12) When you're near, her heart beats faster and slower at the same time

13) When you talk to her, she can't seem to stop smiling

14) When you hold her hands, her heart melts like never before

15) When you brush her hair, her cheeks blush

16) When you kiss her, her knees go weak

17) When you laugh, it warms her heart

18) When you cry, it bleeds her heart

19) When you're away, she'll never stop loving and missing you

20) When you leave her, you take parts of her, and her heart with you

21) She loves you for who you are, not for how you look

22) She loves you in and out

23) However sweaty you may get, she won't mind to give you a warm hug

24) However annoying you may get, she can never get mad

25) She never forgets every little thing she's done with you

26) She never forgets the times that bring smiles to her face

27) She never forgets the one that flies her high, and it's you

28) She never forgets her anniversary date

29) She loves the way you call her name

30) She loves you.

repost from : http://silkegianti.blogspot.com/2011_02_01_archive.html

dad, i'm still your little princess

on my sweet sixteen birthday dinner :)

dear daddy..
maybe now i spend my whole times with my friends to hang out,
watch movies, or get lunch together
or maybe i celebrate Christmas and New Year with them
now i often come late to home
i often ask your permission to go with my friends
this time is like i prefer my friends rather than you
but the truth is i always want to be beside you
i always want to share stories with you
you are the best guy in my life
you never hurt me
you always be my protector
you always love me
and i always love you dad
thank you for theaching me about life :)

sweet pics

beautiful in white

i love this song so much this time :D
Not sure if you know thisBut when we first metI got so nervousI couldn't speakIn that very moment I found the one andMy life had found it's missing pieceSo as long as I live I love youwill heaven hold youYou look so beautiful in whiteAnd from now to my very last breathThis day I'll cherishYou look so beautiful in whiteTonightWhat we have is timelessMy love is endlessAnd with this scream I say to the worldYou're my every reasonYou're all that I believe inwith all my heart I mean every wordSo as long as I live I love youwill heaven hold youYou look so beautiful in whiteAnd from now to my very last breathThis day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in whiteTonightOooooh ohNa na na na naSO beautiful in whiteTonightAnd if our daughter's what our future holdsI hope she has you're eyesfinds love like you and I didYeah, I wish she falls in loveand I will let her goI'll walk her down the aisleShe'll look so beautiful in white.....You look so beautifulIn whiteSo as long as I live I love youwill heaven hold youYou look so beautiful in whiteAnd from now to my very last breathThis day I'll cherishYou look so beautiful in whiteTonight"You look so beautiful in white tonight"

CHRISTMAS ♥

December 25th 00:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBY !! my very best friends :*
i wish Santa could grant your wish :D

*dec 24th :)
Christmas eve
O holy night the stars are brightly shinning..
what a wonderful night, pelayanan tamborin 2x

face painting  buat pelayanan *dancing* :D
















malemnya sekitar jam 11an dijemput ama yohanes, mau surprise di rumah debby :)
bet on me, she'll be so happy :D
siap"in smuanya pas d mobil, kongkalikong ama maminya dan dedenya, and.....

Dec 25th :D
salah masuk kamar dulu pas nyanyiin happy birthday debby x_x memalukaan, hahaha
terus pas masuk kamar debby, dianya ud mau tdur, a little bit galau i think !!
and she turn to be so happy :D
tiup lilin, make a wish, potong kue, first cake nya andrian :D wkwkwk cak kocak kocak, wkwk

suasana kamar debby waktu surprise :D

kado buat debby :D

TIDUNG ISLAND

19-21 December 2011 was very great days !
we went to tidung island *me debby tori yohanes chandra andrian jeka ludo
woooo i feel so happy

monday, dec 19th
pergi naik kapal !!!
walaupun pas pergi naik kapalnyta mabok, tp tetep aja seneng :D
pas nyampe sana makan, beres", terus main sepedah keliling pulau tidung !!
udah lama rasanya ga naik sepedah, pegel sih, tp tetep aja bahagiaa
malem"nya mau tidur tp akhirnya jalan" lagi k epantai timur bareng yohanes andrian jeka, haham jd cewe sndirian naik sepeda, gelaapp banget malem" ga ad lampuuu -__- tp anginnya enakk, adem banget :D

tuesday, dec 20th
niatnya emang bangun pagi" mau liat sunrise, udah pasang alarm jam 5 subuuhh, gw bangun, tapi mau bangunin yang lain rasanya gak tega liat muka" mereka yang bahagia banget pas tidur ! hahahha, alhasil gw juga tidur lagi deehh, bangun sekitar jam setengah 8, sarapan, terus ke pelabuhan, naik kapal nelayan buat snorkling ! wihiiiiii, asiiikkk banget rasanya bisa diterjang" ombak gtuu, ombaknya gedee", tp asiiikk apalagi kl kena tuuhh "byuuuurr" hahaha, sweet moment :D, terus snorkling liat terumbuh karaangg ama ikaan" ! kereenn banget loohh :D
abis itu ke pulau payung, makan siang, terus pulaangg, mandiii, makaann, tiduuurr, liat sunset ke pantai baraatt, pegel banget rasanya naik sepeda, jauuuhh, tp okelah tak apa, semua pake baju barong kecuali ludo ama chandra. tp mataharinya juga ga ada, ketutup awan mendung :'( tp gpp, akhirnya foto", bagus" jdnya..
eeh" terus si tori minta pulang duluan gara" ga enak badan, terus akhirnya kita kasih dia pulang duluan, taunya dia nyasar x_x kasiaan deeh ampe nangis pas nyampe, untung ga kenapa" dianya :|
night time ! curhaaattt ampe jam setengah 3 subuuuhh, apa aja dicurhatiinn, seruuuuu

wednesay, dec 21th
go hoommeee, pagi" gw bangun duluan, mandiii, sarapaaann, siap", terus beli kaos dulu, foto" bntar, jalan ke ke pelabuhan, naiikk kapal, pulaangg deeehh ! bahagiaaa banget rasany abis spend holiday time bareng temen" :D

unforgettable moments : doa bareng pagi', beres" kasur bareng", naik sepeda bareng", snorkling, stiap mau tidur yohanes ama ludo titip doa, perebutan debo ama pengok, sesi curhat, banyaaaaaakkk !!!!

waktu mau snorkeling :D

laut waktu mau snorkeling :D

foto"nya baru dikit :( nyusul yaaahh :D

Don’t want to remember thaatttt !!!! forgeeettt !!!

BLESSING CHRISTMAS CELEBRATION 4 :D

fyuuh, dance dance dance till you drop !
already dance well on BCC4 , and i'm so happy, Christmas is coming :D

xmas ! :D

christmas when you were mine

sweet song ! :)

11.11.11 ♥

what a special day !
triple elevens day is a sweet day for me
that day when i attended Ko Peter's birthday dinner at mall
and then all of my hang out friends have a plan to watch movie together after dinner, but i can't join with them *so saadd*  because my parents didn't allow me, i almost cried, haha, and then i can't stop my tears ran down my face, i cried at mall among a lot of people *stupid me, i felt so shy x_x*
debby and tori just say that they love me *omG, it doesn't matter, i know you all love me, but now, how can i wipe this tears from my face* my face getting red x_x aaaa. everybody ask me "why" i just said "no matter" and then debby steal my handphone, called my mom, so my mom can allowing me to watch movie together, hahahaa, and then she allowed me ! im so happy, thanks friends, hahhaa
and another story begin......
we watched IMMORTALS, what a great film at Blitzmegaplex studio 1
and we entered the studio, and everybody take a sit, i don't know where to it, because everybody has their couples, and then he said "just sit here, no matter" aaaa, it feels like dagdigdug ! OMG, this is the first time i sit beside him after we broke up, no matter.., i don't feel galau anymore, i dont think of him anymore, i dont love him or like him anymore ! hahhaa, we're really" friends now, and i'm happy :D

11.11.11 is a special day, very sweet, another sweet stories with all my friends, thanks LORD :D

christmas when you were mine

Please take down the misletoe

Cause I don't wanna think about that right now

Cause everything I want is miles away

In a snow covered little town

My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me

Season's greetings, hope you're well

Well I'm doing alright

If you were wondering

Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time

But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really

Up until the nights got cold

And everybody's here, except you, baby

Seems like everyone's got someone to hold

But for me it's just a lonely time

Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody

That'll have to be something I just say this year

I'll bet you got your mom another sweater

And were your cousins late again

When you were putting up the lights this year

Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time

But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight

Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine

white christmas

I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten and children listen
to hear sleigh bells in the snow


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten and children listen
to hear sleigh bells in the snow


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
with every christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
just like the ones I used to know
May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
with every christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


And may all your christmases be white (All your christmases be white)
And may all your christmases be white (All your christmases be white)
And may all your christmases be
(All your christmases be white)
(All your christmases be white)

you and christmas

christmas is in front of my eyes
all the candle and light, gift and song
christmas tree, cake, family
they all here for me, here to celebrate christmas together
but you ? where are you ?
do you remeber last christmas ?
we celebrated it together
when the love was start to growing
when you were here by my side
when the first time i feel christmas is more special than ever
do you remember ?
everyday of this year i wasted to think about you
none of a day i forget about you
but you ?
i dont think you feel the same
and now i dont know what i feel
after many months had passed away without you
now, we just friends and i think thats enough
dont wanna hurt my self anymore
dont wanna act like i need you
let this feeling sleep deep inside my heart
sleep and no one can wake it up
im already tired

EMPTY HEART

DAN SEKARANG, SETELAH GW GA MERASA GALAU LAGI, GW BINGUNG AMA PERASAAN GW SENDIRI, APA YANG GW RASAIN SAAT INI ?
GW CUMA BISA JAWAB SATU KATA "NOTHING"
GA ADA YANG GW RASAIN SAAT INI, GA ADA YANG DIKANGENIN, GA ADA YANG DIPIKIRIN, GA ADA YANG DIGALAUIN, GA ADAAA ! DAN GW CUMA NGERASA GW PENGEN JATUH CINTA LAGI KAYAK DULU. TAPI GA ADA MANUSIA YANG BISA DIJATUHCINTAIN ! LALALALLA~
KALO DENGER YANG MANIS" GA ADA WAJAH YANG MUNCUL DI OTAK GW, DENGER LAGU CINTA LAGU PATAH HATI, GA ADA MANUSIA YANG MUNCUL DI PIKIRAN GW..
APA BANGET DEEHH X_X
DAN GW PUN BINGUNG SEKARANG MAU GIMANA AMA "G", KASIAN DIA YANG NGAREP BANGET AMA GW, KASIAN DIA YANG BAIK BANGET AMA GW, TAPI GW BENER" GA ADA RASA SEDIKITPUN AMA DIA, MAAF :'( TAPI EMANG PERASAAN TUH GA BISA DIPAKSAIN KAN YAA :S
GOD, IM SURRENDER

no more GALAU ! hahaha

woooaa, thanks God
i never ever imagine about this
sabtu ama jumat kemaren jalan ama anak"n nnton ke lapiazza
eh dia juga ikuutt, wooaa, lumayanlah buat cuci mata ngeliat orang ganteng setelah lama ga liat :D
dan waktu hari jumat gw ga mikir sama sekali buat dianter pulang ama dia, bener" ga ngarep dikit juga deh
jangankan dianter pulang, buat ngobrol aja mungkin gw ga ngarep, krn selama ini yang gw tau ya dia menghindar dr gw :\ dan ampir aja jumat kemaren tuh gw pulang ama Glenn, pas gw cerita ama Debby, dengan tegasnya debby bilang "nggak ! kali ini gw ga ngijinin lu pulang ama Glenn" dan disitu gw seneng banget ternyata dia ud ga mrasa gimana" lagi ama gw *thanks GOD* sama juga wkatu sabtunya, *ganteng lagi juga, pake naju ungu dia, wahahhaha* dianter pulang lagii :D

dan sari semua yang gw ceritain diatas tuh ga ada satu pun yang berarti gw ngarep ama dia, ga ad satu pun yg gw mikir dia bakal celebek ama gw. tp gw cuma seneng aja akhirnya setelah kurang lebih 7 bulan gw  ga kontek apa" ama dia, akhirnya slesailah smuanya, gw damai ama dia ! wooaa, makasih Tuhan, really happy for this friendship :)

dan diluar dugaan gw juga, gw pikir gw bakalan galau setelah gw pulang, tapi nyatanya enggak tuh :P gw sehat" aja ampe sekarang, ga ada galau" dikit juga ! hahhaa, maksh Tuhan

dan ini mungkin yang terbaik buat gw *dancing*

bedroom :D

missing you !

the second day of november really really make me like "i dont know what to say"
i met him, i talk wih him for about an hour, we have a lot of jokes together, and i enjoy it !
and i feel like if i can i wanna say to that clock in the wall "dont run so fast keep in this position !"
even that was a lot of peoples, i just enjoy it, i can stare at him as long as i want at that time.
i miss him, his face, his smell, his everything !
and i just wanna slap his face and say 'i hate you'
aaaaaaa, dont like this feeling :"(

i just want to be friends with him, God
take this feeling out :s

hahhaa, it takes a lot of time to forget him, at least, i can have fake smile in front of him that im okay, but inside im really not at all ! HAHAHA
laughing alone, laughing myself !

let me "galau" for a while :P

WISH : THE BEST NOVEMBER EVER :D

WELCOME NOVEMBER *bighug*
i wish this month is the best november ever :D
why ? i dont know, i just wish that thing will come true
dont know ehat will happen, just believe this november is gonna be great !

study at school still as ussual, but a little bit more serious because we (12th grade) have try out on this november. On sea games we dont have holiday :"( just students grade 10th and 11th, damn jealous about it ! sick of being 12th grade student. :\\\\\\\

time has passed away, and like i dont believe that next month is DECEMBER ! oh my God. time has running like a cheetah, soooo fast, i feel like yesterday i celebrate 2011 newyear with my friends and now we almost celebrate new year again ? *close my eyes*

and one thing i love about NOVEMBER ! it's RAIN
i love the smell of rain :*
so fresh and i read an article which is told that smell can make us remember about the past stories *woooaaa*
so dont shock if this month i will a little bit "galau" HAHAHHAHAHA and im going crazy
yeahm i love rain and i love it since i was a kid  :)

okay ! so, welcome to my hug dear my sweet NOVEMBER :D

goodbye OCTOBER !

OCTOBER : DONE ! *thanking God*
october full of stories, The pledge was success and im very happy that this even was success !
test in binus university has passed away and i still waiting for the result, *i know God gives mw the best*
MID has gone, my scores are tottaly good on each subject :)

and this month i have meet him for 3 times. never tought about this before
and i realize that i miss him
i miss his voice, miss his fragrance, miss his smile !
yeah everything missing from me about 7 months and i dont know what to do :(
no one can take my heart now, honestly im feeling empty and i want to fall in love again !
please please please !! aaaaaa :"(

okay ! STOP talking about him ! yeeaah
im grateful that OCTOBER has gone, an di wish for the best NOVEMBER ever :D *kiss*