xmas ! :D

christmas when you were mine

sweet song ! :)

11.11.11 ♥

what a special day !
triple elevens day is a sweet day for me
that day when i attended Ko Peter's birthday dinner at mall
and then all of my hang out friends have a plan to watch movie together after dinner, but i can't join with them *so saadd*  because my parents didn't allow me, i almost cried, haha, and then i can't stop my tears ran down my face, i cried at mall among a lot of people *stupid me, i felt so shy x_x*
debby and tori just say that they love me *omG, it doesn't matter, i know you all love me, but now, how can i wipe this tears from my face* my face getting red x_x aaaa. everybody ask me "why" i just said "no matter" and then debby steal my handphone, called my mom, so my mom can allowing me to watch movie together, hahahaa, and then she allowed me ! im so happy, thanks friends, hahhaa
and another story begin......
we watched IMMORTALS, what a great film at Blitzmegaplex studio 1
and we entered the studio, and everybody take a sit, i don't know where to it, because everybody has their couples, and then he said "just sit here, no matter" aaaa, it feels like dagdigdug ! OMG, this is the first time i sit beside him after we broke up, no matter.., i don't feel galau anymore, i dont think of him anymore, i dont love him or like him anymore ! hahhaa, we're really" friends now, and i'm happy :D

11.11.11 is a special day, very sweet, another sweet stories with all my friends, thanks LORD :D

christmas when you were mine

Please take down the misletoe

Cause I don't wanna think about that right now

Cause everything I want is miles away

In a snow covered little town

My momma's in the kitchen, worrying about me

Season's greetings, hope you're well

Well I'm doing alright

If you were wondering

Lately I can never tell

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time

But there were Christmases when you were mine

I've been doing fine without you, really

Up until the nights got cold

And everybody's here, except you, baby

Seems like everyone's got someone to hold

But for me it's just a lonely time

Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

Merry Christmas everybody

That'll have to be something I just say this year

I'll bet you got your mom another sweater

And were your cousins late again

When you were putting up the lights this year

Did you notice one less pair of hands

I know this shouldn't be a lonely time

But there were Christmases when I didn't wonder how you are tonight

Cause there were Christmases when you were mine

You were mine

white christmas

I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten and children listen
to hear sleigh bells in the snow


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten and children listen
to hear sleigh bells in the snow


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
with every christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
just like the ones I used to know
May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


I'm dreaming of a white christmas,
with every christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


May your days be merry and bright,
and may all your christmases be white


And may all your christmases be white (All your christmases be white)
And may all your christmases be white (All your christmases be white)
And may all your christmases be
(All your christmases be white)
(All your christmases be white)

you and christmas

christmas is in front of my eyes
all the candle and light, gift and song
christmas tree, cake, family
they all here for me, here to celebrate christmas together
but you ? where are you ?
do you remeber last christmas ?
we celebrated it together
when the love was start to growing
when you were here by my side
when the first time i feel christmas is more special than ever
do you remember ?
everyday of this year i wasted to think about you
none of a day i forget about you
but you ?
i dont think you feel the same
and now i dont know what i feel
after many months had passed away without you
now, we just friends and i think thats enough
dont wanna hurt my self anymore
dont wanna act like i need you
let this feeling sleep deep inside my heart
sleep and no one can wake it up
im already tired

EMPTY HEART

DAN SEKARANG, SETELAH GW GA MERASA GALAU LAGI, GW BINGUNG AMA PERASAAN GW SENDIRI, APA YANG GW RASAIN SAAT INI ?
GW CUMA BISA JAWAB SATU KATA "NOTHING"
GA ADA YANG GW RASAIN SAAT INI, GA ADA YANG DIKANGENIN, GA ADA YANG DIPIKIRIN, GA ADA YANG DIGALAUIN, GA ADAAA ! DAN GW CUMA NGERASA GW PENGEN JATUH CINTA LAGI KAYAK DULU. TAPI GA ADA MANUSIA YANG BISA DIJATUHCINTAIN ! LALALALLA~
KALO DENGER YANG MANIS" GA ADA WAJAH YANG MUNCUL DI OTAK GW, DENGER LAGU CINTA LAGU PATAH HATI, GA ADA MANUSIA YANG MUNCUL DI PIKIRAN GW..
APA BANGET DEEHH X_X
DAN GW PUN BINGUNG SEKARANG MAU GIMANA AMA "G", KASIAN DIA YANG NGAREP BANGET AMA GW, KASIAN DIA YANG BAIK BANGET AMA GW, TAPI GW BENER" GA ADA RASA SEDIKITPUN AMA DIA, MAAF :'( TAPI EMANG PERASAAN TUH GA BISA DIPAKSAIN KAN YAA :S
GOD, IM SURRENDER

no more GALAU ! hahaha

woooaa, thanks God
i never ever imagine about this
sabtu ama jumat kemaren jalan ama anak"n nnton ke lapiazza
eh dia juga ikuutt, wooaa, lumayanlah buat cuci mata ngeliat orang ganteng setelah lama ga liat :D
dan waktu hari jumat gw ga mikir sama sekali buat dianter pulang ama dia, bener" ga ngarep dikit juga deh
jangankan dianter pulang, buat ngobrol aja mungkin gw ga ngarep, krn selama ini yang gw tau ya dia menghindar dr gw :\ dan ampir aja jumat kemaren tuh gw pulang ama Glenn, pas gw cerita ama Debby, dengan tegasnya debby bilang "nggak ! kali ini gw ga ngijinin lu pulang ama Glenn" dan disitu gw seneng banget ternyata dia ud ga mrasa gimana" lagi ama gw *thanks GOD* sama juga wkatu sabtunya, *ganteng lagi juga, pake naju ungu dia, wahahhaha* dianter pulang lagii :D

dan sari semua yang gw ceritain diatas tuh ga ada satu pun yang berarti gw ngarep ama dia, ga ad satu pun yg gw mikir dia bakal celebek ama gw. tp gw cuma seneng aja akhirnya setelah kurang lebih 7 bulan gw  ga kontek apa" ama dia, akhirnya slesailah smuanya, gw damai ama dia ! wooaa, makasih Tuhan, really happy for this friendship :)

dan diluar dugaan gw juga, gw pikir gw bakalan galau setelah gw pulang, tapi nyatanya enggak tuh :P gw sehat" aja ampe sekarang, ga ada galau" dikit juga ! hahhaa, maksh Tuhan

dan ini mungkin yang terbaik buat gw *dancing*

bedroom :D

missing you !

the second day of november really really make me like "i dont know what to say"
i met him, i talk wih him for about an hour, we have a lot of jokes together, and i enjoy it !
and i feel like if i can i wanna say to that clock in the wall "dont run so fast keep in this position !"
even that was a lot of peoples, i just enjoy it, i can stare at him as long as i want at that time.
i miss him, his face, his smell, his everything !
and i just wanna slap his face and say 'i hate you'
aaaaaaa, dont like this feeling :"(

i just want to be friends with him, God
take this feeling out :s

hahhaa, it takes a lot of time to forget him, at least, i can have fake smile in front of him that im okay, but inside im really not at all ! HAHAHA
laughing alone, laughing myself !

let me "galau" for a while :P

WISH : THE BEST NOVEMBER EVER :D

WELCOME NOVEMBER *bighug*
i wish this month is the best november ever :D
why ? i dont know, i just wish that thing will come true
dont know ehat will happen, just believe this november is gonna be great !

study at school still as ussual, but a little bit more serious because we (12th grade) have try out on this november. On sea games we dont have holiday :"( just students grade 10th and 11th, damn jealous about it ! sick of being 12th grade student. :\\\\\\\

time has passed away, and like i dont believe that next month is DECEMBER ! oh my God. time has running like a cheetah, soooo fast, i feel like yesterday i celebrate 2011 newyear with my friends and now we almost celebrate new year again ? *close my eyes*

and one thing i love about NOVEMBER ! it's RAIN
i love the smell of rain :*
so fresh and i read an article which is told that smell can make us remember about the past stories *woooaaa*
so dont shock if this month i will a little bit "galau" HAHAHHAHAHA and im going crazy
yeahm i love rain and i love it since i was a kid  :)

okay ! so, welcome to my hug dear my sweet NOVEMBER :D

goodbye OCTOBER !

OCTOBER : DONE ! *thanking God*
october full of stories, The pledge was success and im very happy that this even was success !
test in binus university has passed away and i still waiting for the result, *i know God gives mw the best*
MID has gone, my scores are tottaly good on each subject :)

and this month i have meet him for 3 times. never tought about this before
and i realize that i miss him
i miss his voice, miss his fragrance, miss his smile !
yeah everything missing from me about 7 months and i dont know what to do :(
no one can take my heart now, honestly im feeling empty and i want to fall in love again !
please please please !! aaaaaa :"(

okay ! STOP talking about him ! yeeaah
im grateful that OCTOBER has gone, an di wish for the best NOVEMBER ever :D *kiss*